Before my heart is left colorless and lifeless, there is a break in the clouds where the light pours over my soul, and the rain takes away my thirst. I am better again. This visual reminds me that "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it (John 1:5). " God overcomes my depression and anxiety by renewing my mind. Because he IS the light.
Not because of me or anything I have done or deserve, but because of LOGOS- because the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, I have seen the glory as of the only Son from the Father full of grace and truth. He isn't someone who I am learning knowledge about like I am studying for an exam. I'm not trying to earn the company of a distant cosmic killjoy with good deeds. I have seen his glory. I know him to be real. I have seen him heal sickness, cure addiction, and redeem horrid circumstances.
The nature of who he is renews hope when I hear of injustice. I believe he is the everlasting God who makes good on his promises for mercy. This changes who I am. It keeps me from assigning motive to others' actions that I feel or perceive are against me. It changes how quickly I respond to turmoil. It changes how I perceive myself and my desires. I am more content. I am willing to change. But my heart will wander from my contentedness to a place that is thirsty again. And when I bring myself to seek, I will see his promise again.
Keep up, Honey!